End Of 2016

Finally the end of 2016 is looming ahead! As I approach the New Year, I find myself trying to keep my strength up. It's as if I am being besieged. People are asking me to supply far more than I can spare. Situations too are taking it out of me. This explains not only the pressure I feel... it illuminates the opportunities I am facing. But it is time to stop.I have to let go of the pressure, so that I am free to embrace the opportunities that 2017 brings. I'm putting on a brave face. I always do that. But, actually, I need help, support and understanding. I have to be patient. Help is on its way, but it's coming slowly. I have to try to trust that this is happening and, meanwhile, don't give in to pressure. It appears that I can only go so far and then no further. Seemingly, there's a limit to what I can do. Does this make me resentful? I must not let it. That's like a train feeling cross because the tracks are never more than a certain distance apart. The boundaries, the restrictions, the defining lines in my life on all levels exist for a reason. It's a good one. I'm being kept in a position that can ultimately only make me very happy. I need to be less inclined to doubt my circumstances and more prepared to trust my heart. Already this week, I've had to do a lot of soul-searching. But in the process of searching for my soul, I've found it. Isn't that a joyous discovery to take into the New Year? Tick, tock, tick, tock. I know what that sound represents. It's why I should slow down, rather than speed up. Ignore the sense of urgency. Life is too short for hurry and worry. If I were here forever, perhaps I could afford to waste precious moments in a state of terrible tension. But the very brevity of existence means I should savour every second. Go easy as I move towards the New Year. Time to let go of the pressure to get things done. This year has really pulled me through the ringer. Am I glad to see the back of 2016? Absolutely! Today I took my own advice. I slept late. I took my time exercising. I lay in the sun a bit - the first time in a week that I have seen the sun! Its been raining here all week. I sent some e-mails after lunch and posted some ads. That was that. Enough is enough! It is the first time ever that I have worked right through a December month....I am drained. Saturday I go to my happy place in Pennington on the South Coast. Sea, sand and sunshine are beckoning for me to come join them!

Mind Reading

Would life not be wonderful if you could read another person's mind?  But, reality is that you can't just expect someone to read your mind. How can they know what you want - especially if you're not even sure you know what you want yourself! Though it may be considered impolite to express a desire or make a request, surely, it's even more anti-social to just sit around, hoping that someone will guess what you're thinking. And, chances are, you'll end up feeling resentful because they haven't read you clearly. If in doubt, speak out!

Lightning Flashes

This storm came out of no where last night. At around 11:30 the skies were all clear and I thought to myself "ok, I can leave the sun lounger mattress and the umbrella on the patio as it's not going to rain". I then went and got ready for bed. 20 min later I see this flash of light and at first I thought one of the security lights had blown, when I saw another flash - I looked out the window and it was insane - the sky all closed up - lightning flashes in such quick succession it was like disco lights. I ofcourse did not see what Christo Smith, a photographer in the area where I live, captured with his camera in the foto below. It really is so awesome! I had to race outside in my PJ's and quickly grab everything on the patio to bring inside. That is the only issue I have with where I now live - I do not have a covered patio so whenever it rains I have to cart everything inside. So annoying sometimes!

This is Christo Smith's rendition of last night as follows : 

6 Minutes of Lightning. That's all...

Opportunity "strikes" at the strangest of times. It's late at night, 12:30, and we're about to get ready for bed. A massive electrical storm rushes over us in Northriding with strikes every few seconds, and I knew I had to take a chance.

I had my camera and tripod in the boot of my car which is on the other side of the complex which I live in. I ran across, grabbed them and ran back, set up in a minute and under a car port lodged between two cars I started shooting on Bulb Mode taking several shots.

I got a few strikes and then the severe wind starts blowing the rain directly at me. I had to stop... Rain drops already on my lens, and camera shake from the wind a certainty. I had to see what I got...

I checked; I started shooting at 12:39, and I was forced to stop at 12:45. 6 minutes. I love the Highveld of South Africa...I am Proudly South African.
Canon 6D, Tamron 28-75mm 2.8. Bulb Mode. F5.6. ISO 100.

Wish Lists

With technology these days, online stores allow you to create 'Wish-Lists'. Oftentimes these are items we're planning on obtaining with or without anyone else's intervention... although, we may not be able to do so immediately, they're not out of the question. What if we were to fill the list with items wildly beyond our means? Does it make it an impossible fantasy? Or does it push us to find resources to make it happen? Sometimes we need to vocalise our desires. The first step towards making a wish come true, is making the wish!

Sounds Of Silence

My all time favourite song of 2016. When this comes on the radio in the car the whole world knows I am playing this song!! Absolutely so powerful that my hair stands on end every time I hear it. I LOVE David Draiman's version of this song.

A Friend In Need

My friend has been going through a really tough time. Her husband is very ill at the moment. So inevitably we are now backwards and forwards with whatsapp messages. Day in and day out and late at night too. That is how I am. I will make time for a friend in need. It is very often in cases like these that you realise who your true friends are. Often times those that you really thought would be there for you surprise you horribly! No matter whether it is in a family, a love relationship or friendship we all need someone to be there as a pillar of support. Without that it can be very lonely, quite devastating really if you even consider the mental and emotional anguish that someone has to endure when they are all alone in the world! I am grateful that I have loving, supportive friends and family in my life. 

Having Your Cake And Eating It

A friend of mine happened to read this post and asked me what I am on about as in general when people refer to "having your cake and eating it" - it usually means that you have two people in your life that you are intimately involved with and therefore the saying "you can have your cake or you can eat it" but not both. So basically you need to choose, it is either the one or the other. I cracked up laughing because that analogy does not apply to me and yes, I did not think about it that way!  She was really confused and also had a good laugh as she thought I was hiding this deep, dark secret from her! :D No, I am not in that boat and my opinion on that scenario is that I do not agree with it at all. My stance on relationships is that if you are involved with someone, you remain loyal to that person. I was faced with a choice the other day that had nothing to do with a relationship. It concerned a choice I had to make regarding an option or rather an opinion related to my business. Something more directed to the sentences that I have highlighted below. You can have your cake or you can eat it. You can't do both. Or so conventional wisdom tells us. But what's the point of having a cake that you can't eat? And, as it is impossible to eat a cake that you can't have, why wouldn't you try to eat it while you have it? You've been feeling as if life has been asking you to work a miracle. Today, it becomes clear that you only have to re-evaluate an old opinion. Take a less pessimistic look at that cake!

I Wanna Kiss You All Over

At some point today this song randomly popped into my head and stayed all day...I love you...I need you...I wanna kiss you all over...and over again...Keep on loving me Baby and I'll keep on loving you...Oh stay with me Baby and hold me all night long...Show me...Show me everything you do...Cos Baby no one does it quite like you...Tonight closes in...You're everything to me...a FAB-ulous song...

Sensory Perception

I am in awe! Berry Jones is amazing. It is so uncanny how the messages are so relevant to my experiences each day. These messages are so profound! Yesterday again I was having a bad day at work. Wondering if I will be able to get my team to follow the vision I have. Wondering where the like-minded people are. Trying to word my adverts in such a way to reach the right people. Hashing out words - over and over and rehashing them again! Frustration coursing through me like a wild river! A frigging challenge for sure but dammit I am determined. Today (8 December 2016) I think I have found a team that will follow. I am looking forward again. Today I have happiness in my heart not only in my work life but in my personal life too!! The bends in the road are definitely alot less frightening than I imagined! What can I say? All but...thank you!

Today's Daily Angel Card Message for Wednesday, December 7, 2016

When you stand in your power, you have this incredible insight into all the hidden possibilities surrounding you. You are not alone, as there is lots of support everywhere you look. These opportunities are flowing from within your soul and reflecting through your outer experiences. All you have to do is have the courage to express them for those people who will benefit from them the most. You are strong and can solve any problems, which may challenge you along the way. This is your appointed time, which you can sense. Your sensory perception is spot on. There's no reason to hesitate or second guess what you get. You're standing in a position of advantage, where the general view gives you enough information to make an informed decision. Consider all the variables in relationship to everything you want. Don't segregate or break down the information into separate parts. Keep seeing the complete picture of contrast as a significant whole working in unity to help you unearth your truth, and it's purpose. Your entire body of life experiences is cultivating and deriving the individual pieces that will eventually fall into place. There's nothing lacking in yourself or in your reality. It is all there what you seek and need. You simply have to draw the components together through the eye of your spiritual perspective, lead by your heart’s passions.

The angels want you to feel how immensely loved and supported you are at this time. You have a strong conviction to use some form of communication to advertise your message. Perhaps, you are feeling compelled through some medium of communication to speak, teach, or heal. There are many possible avenues for you to accomplish this. It does not matter which it is. It's most important that you allow yourself to naturally follow the one which you feel more fluent and at ease with. Don't try to do something because it seems it will have a greater impact on your success. This has more to do with which will allow you to find the best channel of connection with your audience. The voice of your spirit is inspiring and motivational. You have an ability to uplift and create change. Even though there will be challenges in this, you thrive in this environment best. These challenges do not hinder your efforts or mission, they are the basis of your divinely guided choices. You are a natural healer going into battle with a great light. Your light is a bringer of beauty and peace. The peace you bring is truth and alignment, as the souls you encounter find their way again. Your happiness and theirs is the result, which peace offers. Peace is not a smooth quality of vibration, like a placid lake’s surface. It's more like an undisturbed flow of momentum and enjoyment in your journey, no matter what bumps appear on the surface. When you are focused and clear about what you are aiming for, your awareness expands and you allow a broader range of information into the scope of your vision and perception. Those bumps you notice or discover before you make contact with them, and it allows you to make choices about their meaning to your overall plan.

Some of those bumps in your higher state of consciousness may or may not have a role in the current process. A decision is made and accepted whereby you act in accordance with your own alignment. You don't think to replay your performance or actions, you simply monitor how much of your flow you are channeling. Within the peace of your heart, your aim is to allow more improvement of this to occur each time. You recognize that you have only the present moment and its circumstances to apply this process, so you sever regrets from the past, and keep living in the present. As you do, the body of your whole experiences come into focus and serves the desire you wish to fashion. In this way, all the parts of your life can work in harmony to bring a central current of success to support whatever dreams or goals you are producing and processing. There are many who would be happy to dive in and join you in achieving your goals, if you are more available to assistance from others. Don't hold onto too tightly to your purse strings. Loosen up a bit in this regard, in order for your needs and their means to flow more efficiently. You would like to retain a certain level of control over the direction and ultimate outcome. However, think about surrendering the controls out of fear for the ultimate purpose of abundance to take a greater direction than you had been able to conceive alone. What you will have, would not be possible, if not for the entire team of participants whom will follow.

Your body of affluence stems from the collective creation of your Source, who is the forever living presence, which is sharing and inspiring the desires, which bring you peace and purpose. Celebrate your achievements wielded in the independence of your expression. Think less about safety and the how’s. Concentrate on the ways to relinquish the voice of your soul through creatively doing and interacting. Listen to what your gut tells you, to guide you through the path of least resistance no matter what occurs. If friends or like-minded individuals show up on your path to help you, receive what they have to offer. There will probably never be a straight line to your destination. Enjoy the bends in the road. Lean into them a bit. They are a lot less frightening than you imagined. Let the peace of your Source flow through each experience, and see what develops from your openness and receptivity. You'll be most surprised at the amount of information and understanding you have access to from the advantage of this position. You are feeling strongly optimistic and with good reason! Choose the path that's right for you. Others will find their way soon. You are a model for peace. May the Source be with you always!

Berry

Accepting Another's Child

People have asked me if I were to get married again and my future husband has a child or children from either a previous relationship or marriage, would I accept them? I don't even have to think about that as the answer would be yes. That is IF I were to find a man that proposed to me :D. 

Many years ago when I got divorced my son was only 18 months old. Those years men were not prepared to accept another man's child. I had huge issues with men just because I had a son. My motto was - that if they could not accept that I have a son, then they were not worth it.

I did have a relationship where my partner at that time also had a son. Kelly was about two months younger than Jason. For a whole year that little boy was a part of my life every second weekend when it was his turn to be with his father. I loved and cared for him! When the relationship ended, it was difficult. I missed Kelly something terrible and so did Jason. But we had to move on.

I have never had an issue with other people's children. When my nephew Donovan married Julie. Julie had a little girl from her previous marriage. At that time Jamie was 2 years old. Our whole family accepted Jamie including me. Donovan and Julie are now getting divorced and it has affected me big time because again, I miss Jamie. She is now 6 years old. I cannot imagine how broken her little heart must be. It is sad. She cannot understand why it is that Hayden, Donovan and Julie's little boy - my great nephew - now goes to Donovan for weekends and she can't go with. Oh gosh, just writing that has brought tears to my eyes!! Crap - I am such a softy sometimes! teeheeheee

Anyway, my answer to the question is - yes, should I ever be in that position, I would accept a child or children from a previous relationship or marriage. I have always wanted a family of my own. I do have my son and I do have my sisters, nephews etc but I am talking about having my very "own" family. A husband. I have always wanted a husband. If he has a child or children that would be a bonus!! It would be wonderful having a happy, loving family :D

A Revelation

Once again hitting the nail on the head! Advice that was much needed by me on this day...

Today's Daily Angel Card Message for November 30, 2016

Some revelation suddenly occurs to you to help you finally get clear of a passing storm in your life. It was a passing storm no matter how long it seemed it would remain. Sometimes situations in our lives create a feeling of permanence, which causes you to overreact or struggle against it. This struggle only prolongs the experience beyond its need, while overshadowing what is surfacing as a solution. Be careful not to hold onto the obstacle hindering your vision of an opportunity in your midst, especially when you can sense something better on the horizon. It may not come easily to you to let go, or to remove your heels once you have dug in deep. At this point, it would be better if you did instead of being yanked from the circumstances by the force of your own soul's inertia. You can choose to remain where you are, even if you are opposing your own momentum. However, the desire to transition, from your higher self’s purpose, will eventually win out, as you are always in agreement and wishing for the fulfillment of your own happiness. Although, you may not feel ready for what's coming, and in some instances, what's already happening, take advantage of what you are receiving. You don't have to digest the whole thing at once. Take a piece at a time, and more importantly, only the pieces in front of you at the moment. The rest will sort itself when the time comes, and you'll know what to do then, as well.

The angels present this number (932), as a reassurance that this opportunity is meant. It says, “Trust that the ascended masters are helping your career and Divine life purpose, because they are.” I feel they are especially making it clear that a revelation, a solution, or opportunity you've received is the answer to a prayer you've been seeking to confirm. There's no reason or need for you to be going in circles continuously about this. This is it. You may be uncomfortable with the answer, but it does not make it less meaningful. Your doubts are a tool of procrastination. Instead of trying to avoid making mistakes, and wondering “what if” this happens or not, focus on what is possible based on what you have been given. Now is the time to deal with the facts and the tangible results in reach for you to seize. Step by step, you can increase your confidence in your life and your readiness to move ahead on your goals. It's unwise to think that you could smooth out all the wrinkles before making a decision or taking action. There is no path that comes without them. They serve a good purpose, which in time you will be able to see. Nothing is reasonably apparent when you would like it. However, the less you resist, the more you can expect to discover it more easily in time.

There isn't just one decision or purpose that will ensue throughout the course of events, which are to follow from this immediate point. Those future outcomes will unfold new or greater developments from the advantages surrounding the plot you're currently working on, which have also brought you to this moment. Instead of beating the bush to death for all the outstanding particulars involving the future, look for the highlights of all you were hoping for now. This will help calm your anxieties, which are exacerbated from using this approach. Your “mental aches” or headaches will subside as you focus more on present decisions, rather than the future ones. Likewise, don't worry about the problems in your life that seem too overwhelming and complex to fix. Give space to others, and let them resolve their own problems. You can't help someone unless they are ready to receive it. Their choices don't have to determine what your outcome will be. You may experience influences resulting from the side effects of their actions, but you can use them to help you to get clarity about your own stance in that moment. Instead of holding resistance, in response, channel your creativity in a direction that encourages your own alignment in this process. As you can imagine this happening, you will receive insights and instructions to make your vision a reality.

You may find yourself vacillating between worry and excitement. In the period, you are witnessing the tides of change and the possibilities, which can unfold. It's like a tipping point and you must steady the hands of change through your trust in the strength of your passions and impulses. Stop trying to predict your future and start living out the best choices for the moments available to you right now. It's not about a win for the future. You can experience a win, now! In fact, you do, but you are too busy being disappointed about the past and future to notice. If you pay attention long enough, you'll recognize the support around you, which is always showing up when you least expect it. The symbolism of these varied gifts is love. When you get out of your own way and follow the path you're on, you are walking in alignment with your true purpose and the rewards of happiness it brings. Don't decide between this or that thing, or an achievement. Make the decision that makes you as happy as you can know of, right now! May the Source be with you always!

Berry

Becoming Technosavvy

I am so impressed with myself! I always considered myself as being a "boffin" on a computer...:D...I taught myself just about everything from excel formulas to power point presentations...you name it. Then there I was...I used to envy people that were very technosavvy with their cell phones. I just was not technosavvy in that respect. I even despised whatsapp. And now? Well here I am now and I have to laugh. A month ago I was still using an old, decrepit blackberry!! To give you an idea...when I did use whatsapp I would get a message saying that after 31 December 2016 I would no longer be able to use whatsapp on the phone and would need to upgrade to another device. Here I am now, I have my tablet in one hand and my new smartphone in the other...a pen stuck behind my ear or between my teeth and I am juggling between the two devices! I now have an instagram account too and am posting on linkedin. I have a fantastic app with which I am doing video and e-mail campaigning for my new business...and the best is...I can do it from anywhere in the world...well ok...at this point I am only talking about my local location...but I really could do this from anywhere in the world. I find that so awesome!! To top it all I now use whatsapp too to do my business...what an absolute pleasure being able to phone people using whatsapp. I could not do that with my ancient phone and people could also not call me on whatsapp either!! :D I do conference calling and I am able to view messages from my mentor on periscope.tv. Incredible how technology has improved the lives of so many!! Am I impressed with myself...you bet I am...teeheeeheee....

This Is The Call Of Your Will

Last month’s emotional encounters have created new and unique circumstances for you. New ideas are flowing and unexpected avenues are opening up. You have accomplished a lot, but this is only a stepping stone to greater possibilities. This is a cycle of beginnings, change, independence, originality, and self-acceptance.

This new phase of your life is likely to start with the feeling of standing alone, feeling your own pulse, your own energy, your own satisfaction, and the power that comes when you truly understand something that you previously did not understand at all. Knowledge IS power. And you probably know that this marvelous feeling of being alive can only be maintained when you are being yourself.

Doors are opening that were not open to you before. “As one door closes, another opens”, the saying goes. The problem is that we often cannot see the open doors because we are still focused on the ones that have closed. Allow the doors of the past to close completely – and then see the enormous potential that lies ahead. This can only be done by expressing the feelings – from the past – that you are still holding inside.

You are in very different territory now. Stay constantly aware of your new position. There is no need to prove how clever you are. In fact, you stand to learn a lot more by assuming that you do not know enough. The emphasis is on you: your individuality; your special abilities; your needs and desires.

Accept yourself, faults and all, exactly as you are. Nobody’s perfect. Only by accepting your faults can you ever hope to change them, so do not judge yourself too harshly for having them. Give yourself credit for what you have learned and, in some cases, un-learned. This level of self-respect will enable you to respect the individuality, faults, and abilities of the people with whom you are now dealing, and to realize that we are all in the learning stages of how to live, no matter what qualifications, claims to fame, or titles we may possess.

You may experience a positive jolt of energy this month which comes from something that is entirely new to you. You are reaching a new level of understanding and, yes, one person can make a difference.

The experience of feeling yourself evolve into higher consciousness is the ‘new beginning’ November has in mind for you, regardless of what else is taking place on a physical, commercial, or global level. This involves a feeling you will want to repeat often because, quite simply, it feels so good.

Simultaneously however, you are being pulled towards next year’s 9 energy – a 12 month cycle that will bring a complete cycle of nine years to an end, and will emphasize the unresolved issues of your entire lifetime.

November’s powerful combination of energies enables you to visualize your life as one continuing journey, with each event of the past leading to where you are today. And, from where you are today, you can hear the call, and you can feel the exciting lure, of where you want to go from here. This is the call of your Will – your feminine energy – and you need to listen to it more attentively than ever before!

Be The Creator Of Your Reality

I really love when I find a message that inspires me. The messages I have read lately all somehow feel that they are directed at me with regards to career. I love how there is always some advice that I can take from these messages...always something to help me along my path. Man, I feel really good!!

Today's Angel Card Message for Monday, October 24, 2016
It seems that you are feeling really good about a few things in your life and some decisions you've made. However, you may have some interference coming from loved ones and friends, because they don't agree wholeheartedly with the direction you're taking. This is placing you in a very vulnerable position, because it's questioning for you what your heart is compelling you to do. You have resorted to keep it hidden from them until you can get more comfortable with the choice you've made. Meanwhile, you've created a wonderful world where no one else exists and neither does their two cents of input! You feel really good about what you are doing and enjoying. Your soul is alive and your pulse for your life purpose is strong. This situation may also involve a romantic relationship. Although you have a solid connection developing between you, it's time to start looking at where this is seriously going. The only way to discover that is to see how it perseveres in the actual journey of your lives together and individually. Your heart's potential is open to successful outcomes. Whether you are pursuing a relationship or a career, a path is unfolding for you to channel what you have learned into really sustainable, stable, and prosperous opportunities!

Standing before you is a gateway into a whole new paradigm of existence and consciousness. It's a new world order, where you're truly ruling your reality from the heart. Your heart is orchestrating completely new conditions, as this Emperor is possibly exemplifying by the symbols of his reign. Your thoughts and actions are not solely dictated by reason and logic, but also motivated by your passions. They matter and are given more prominence in your decisions, as they rightly should. This card, in this regard, is also saying that you are doing what is best for you, and that you are learning to follow the structure and direction that your soul's path has carved out for you. It's also saying that you are not taking a back seat anymore, and that you are partnering and participating more consciously in the choices and developments of this divine plan. New foundations are being placed to stabilize the core of your connection with your higher self, and within the core of your relationships. As this expands, you come to realize that there was never an intention to separate you from the world of your Source and the physical world you interact with. This partnership and connection was provided to enhance and to secure your existence within the universal framework of life.

A fundamental issue is to play down the resourcefulness and powerful tools of your intuition’s ability to assist you in practical decision-making. It's not something that has an on and off switch. To deny its value is impractical and unreasonable. Its purpose is not only to inform you of what's ahead. It's sole reason is to constantly remind you of who you really are, and what it is you desire, that makes you feel happy and valued. There is no greater purpose for your divine guidance. It's a compass that knows “locations” (as in situations, relationships, environments) where you are most fulfilled and successful. These “locations” are vibrational realities where the potential is active, realized, embraced, supported, nurtured, and sustained by your inner being. A perfectly formulated and constructed well made plan is waiting for you to seek it out and experience it. Of course, this is not always easy to do, when there are too many other voices and other types of distractions occupying our minds and attention. The Emperor is asking you to stick to the well laid out plan of your heart, which may mean setting boundaries, making a schedule to curb idleness and frivolity, and being firm and determined.

The Emperor may indicate that you have great ideas floating around, but you aren't making any concrete plans or decisions to develop them into tangible goals. Perhaps, you are afraid to ask for help or seek out some advice from an expert. If you have issues with authority and giving up control, this is going to create an obstacle or some form of stagnation in your process. No one is going to steal your idea and alter it somehow. It's clear that you need some form of assistance, recommendations, or insights to expand your experience or goals. No one ever does anything completely without others. There's a reason why each of us has a speciality or a unique perspective that another doesn't have necessarily in the exact same way. Our diversity is there to bring options we couldn't have explored or expected, otherwise. You need the interaction to spark new ideas, and to possibly renew your motivation and passion. You have a strong desire, but you're lacking will and conviction to follow through. It's time for you to come down from those clouds, and begin building connections to help you get things done.

If you are dating or have been admiring from afar, it's time for you to implement the steps you have been guided to take. This goes for anything. Your focus of inadequacy is disabling you from experiencing the happiness you seek. It doesn't matter what you are thinking in your head. What matters is what you are hearing in your heart. Trust it. Don't worry about the outcome. The outcome is not the practical purpose of the action step. The universe always has a strategy to help you get uncomfortable being in your shell. You want to move from one shell to another, and have it always be and feel comfortable. But, what if being comfortable is the crutch? What if it's keeping you stuck in a similar pattern or environment, where you aren't gaining any real knowledge and understanding of who you are potentially? What if you you being comfortable is what's really making life uninteresting and unsatisfactory for you? So, what if it doesn't turn out the way you hoped? Look at it as an opportunity to discover another aspect of your strengths and weaknesses you weren't aware of, and that you have a chance to try something different. These experiences offer you an opportunity to refine yourself, in order to better align with your true purpose, passion, and potential.

Instead of taking action, based on an expected outcome, make the success of your goal purely about trusting your instincts and wisdom. You have to be able to rely on them as a Emperor in order to gain experience. For example, you're guided to apply for a higher position in your job. The outcome is obviously to be hired. Yet, the focus from your angel's perspective was to apply, because you deserve to know your potential. As you put together the information to complete the application, the resume process causes you to look at your skills and experience in a way completely different from your comfortable position. As you start to transfer the skills and experience that outwardly fit the position, you may start to see other things you've done since your last resume. Because of your current job guidelines, you may not have realized the extra skills you've picked up, which were indicating that you were ready for something more. You were too comfortable in focusing on the outcome of the reliable paycheck to ever pay attention. People don't take advantage of us, as much as, we just don't pay enough attention to ourselves in a credible way. The outcomes aren't as important as what you gain and learn about yourself along the way.

You have to start thinking like a leader or creator of your reality, and less like the outsider or underdog in your own world. Get uncomfortable in this situation. Sometimes, the universe will shake up your world for this very purpose, as the guidance was to assist this process. Once you are finally awake, you're ready for a powerful and true outcome worthy of your heart's valuable contributions and leadership. Don't wrestle against the plan to mold you into a better version of fulfillment and happiness! You are loved too dearly to ever let you stand still in such blandness. If doing something alone does not make a difference or brings unfavorable results, then get back up by asking for help from persons qualified to help you see yourself in the likeness of your Creator's vision of you. The plan is to inspire you to discover the best possibilities to make the progress you seek. Trust and believe in yourself and your intuition. You have strengths and power yet to be unleashed. Now is the time to forge them! May the Source be with you always!

Berry

Greenwich Park

Last weekend I went to go see Bridget Jones' Baby. I have followed each and every one of of the movies. I am already waiting in suspense for the next one!

While I was watching the movie, twice there were scenes where Bridget is in Greenwich Park. Each time my heart jumped. Why? Well it was really quite weird. It is because I knew someone who actually sat in almost the same spot as where she was sitting! I have never been to London so for me at that point I could actually see what this person must have seen when they were sitting there. It was like I was looking through Bridget Jones' (Renee Zellweger) eyes!! I felt as if I was sitting there too...

I loved the movie! This is the soundtrack - FABulous!!

Music In My Life

I love listening to music in the car while on my way to a meeting, as I feel it helps me to prepare for the day that waits. I think it is like the memoirs to my life as it has been there throughout everything with me. Music is one of the most important and powerful things in my life. My life without melodies and harmonies would be totally empty. Listening to different songs helps me to de-stress, relax and it can also help to motivate me in trying times. I believe music has the ability to convey all sorts of emotion. Whether the emotion is joy and happiness or sadness and despair through rhythms, harmonies and the lyrics music shows it. The effect that music can have on our emotions is tremendous, as it can bring people to floods of tears or bursts of laughter. Music has the ability to transport me back in time just like a time machine. It lets me revisit lost and forgotten moments in life. To me music is more than just something to listen to, it’s something to feel. Driving off this morning to a meeting I had Metallica on the radio. Their song "Nothing Else Matters". The acoustics are just so amazing as well as the lyrics. I cannot explain the emotions that ran through me! Then to end the day I was taken back in time with Pat Benatar on the radio, belting out "All Fired Up". Just so awesome! Trust me, you don't want to know me when I start singing along - teeheeheee.

Messages Ring So True

Wow! I am completely blown away!!! Stunned actually and at the same time soooo happy and overwhelmed! I have taken on a new opportunity over and above what I normally do. In this economy I just had to. I have been stressing BIG TIME as to how I am going to make this work and yes, stressing over all the details. I am quite honestly drained. I have even developed a frigging pain just below my right shoulder blade - like a pinched nerve or something - when I turn the wrong way I get this shooting pain through my back! Not nice :( - Getting back to my story - I have been having sleepless nights because my head is spinning with all the things on the "to do list" and yes, questioning my ability and my confidence. My insecurities are getting the better of me. But, being me - who I am - I am determined to make this work. I questioned it all at first but have now seen the potential. Damn - it is there! I have had some hunches but was too skeptical to pursue them and today I just thought - bugger this, I am going to follow my hunch. I am so HAPPY I did. The result from my hunch has opened a completely new door!! I am so stoked. At lunch I took a break and went on to FB and read from some of my favourite groups. I came across these two posts. I could not believe what I was reading!! It's as if these messages are directed at me!! Yesterday I also had a message that I posted here that I also felt was aimed at me. The message was to trust my true instincts and that is exactly what I did today! So, so, sooooo AWESOME!


Today's Angel Card Message for Tuesday, October 11, 2016


The first impression of this card is strongly advising you to open your heart, and shower yourself and others with compassion. It's a signal for you to give everyone, including yourself a huge break! An important opportunity is available, but you're spending too much energy stressing over every little detail. It's draining everyone involved, and creating high volumes of frustration, anxiety, and fatigue. Nothing good can come from this approach. The King of Autumn would suggest that you are working against yourself. Like him, you're very accomplished in your area of expertise and very talented. Instead of grinding away, you need to step back and celebrate your achievements. It doesn't make sense for you to feel insecure about the steps you're taking to bring some important plans or goals to fruition. You're on the right path. You may not see it in this moment, but everything is in effect going quite well! You just need to hang in there, continue with what you are doing, and take advantage of this time to improve how you go about reaching your destination. This card also represents a very sweet and kind person, like a new employer, that you might meet. It could represent your role as a leader of a team or division on your job. Whether you are in a leadership position, or it represents your respectability and influence to shape a particular point of view, you need to trust these impulses and take action about something you know is right.


I'm getting a strong feeling that you've been unable to rest adequately, because of some changes you're pursuing, or considering, in your life. These changes are giving you the chance to set some things straight, which are very important. These huge opportunities are going to make all the difference in the world for you and your loved ones. They will help you to have a completely different lifestyle, where you'll enjoy certain freedoms you couldn't possibly afford otherwise. The opportunity is available because you deserve it, and you're more than qualified with the outstanding skills and experience you have. In spite of knowing this, you are wavering in your confidence, and making the process more difficult than it should. It seems that you need to relax a bit more. The more you focus upon the list of things you need to fulfill the requirements, the greater your anxiety spirals out of control. It is counterproductive to your own flow of well-being and abundance, which is actually blossoming for you at this time. If you're working toward a specific goal, the king might indicate how close you are to succeeding. He may also represent how well you are perceived by others in an interview process, for example.


You are doing a really great job in your preparations. If you applied for employment, a loan, or perhaps met someone you're interested in, this card could highlight how well you're doing. It could show the level of interest in you from the other party. It feels like the faeries are giving you a thumbs up. This might come to comfort you and ease your fears about your chances in this situation. Again, I keep picking up on the need for reassurances, as unfounded insecurities are significantly high. The King of Autumn would suggest that the gifts you've prayed for are available for you to receive. You just have to stay positive and believe. Perhaps you are inspecting some financial prospects, but you're not sure if they are solid leads. This card would affirm your decision. It would also suggests that there is a quick financial turnaround and other possible rewards involved. It's a favorable investment, but it will require more of your time and focused commitment to get it up and running. You'll have to wear several hats at the same time. Even though it will seem slightly stressful, you will feel good about what you are doing. After the initial stages, things will slow down enough for you to have plenty of time and energy to enjoy what you have established.


The King of Autumn would suggest that you focus less on your concerns and put more energy into developing opportunities for yourself. He's surrounded by lots of grapes hanging from the vines. Growing up, my grandmother had two in her backyard. I could stand there all day and eat them. Of course, I did overindulge a few times and gave myself a sour stomach. However, there's no such thing as too good of thing when you are doing what you love. There are always new possibilities unfolding. Instead of never eating anymore grapes, I learned better not to worry about getting sick, but to pay attention to noticing when I have had enough. Some of you may have misjudged something in the past, overindulged, and paid some heavy consequences for them. Yet, this doesn't mean that you should stop trying. Don't take precautions by over analyzing what went wrong. And, don't try to anticipate your actions beforehand. Basically, you'll end up sabotaging yourself and what's important to you. Trust that you will know the right thing to do when the moment arrives. The same impulses that have stirred you in this wonderful direction will continue to provide the wisdom and insights at anytime you're unsure, and need assistance.


Another aspect of this card's meaning may signify physical clues, “chance” meetings, or having a spiritual vision or dream come true. Gifts appear in different forms. You may receive them very clearly and accurately while you're doing something creative or following up on a hunch you have. Don't be afraid of a sudden opportunity to speak or display your talents before an audience. Even if you don't feel ready, go for it! You are more than ready for the opportunity that has been set up for you. You'll feel a strong spiritual connection and will be surrounded by God's grace and love. When you feel drawn toward a wonderful new opportunity, trust that behind the door is an extraordinary blessing that's beyond your imagination of good. You haven't begun to see the peace and satisfaction you're meant to have. Think less about doing what's right, and start with doing what feels good! May the Source be with you always!


Berry

The following extract is from Doreen Virtue's Angel card for today, 11 October 2016.

What repetitive business ideas have you been receiving? Because your guardian angels are saying these ideas are answers to your prayers. Now it's time to trust and follow these inner messages which guide you to take positive action steps for your business idea, such as research, education, grant-writing, crowd funding, and so forth. Each step is guided and supported for you, including helpful people being sent to assist in the business idea's fruition. God knows exactly what you're capable of, and so gives you ideas about positive actions to take which bring blessings to the world. God also provides for your personal and business needs as you follow and fulfill your divine guidance. Today, envision your idea as already being fulfilled. Feel the sense of mission and passion you have for helping others with your business venture. Hold this vision and these feelings, and doors will open for you at exactly the right time and in the right way.

Even the two pictures of the cards are really awesome!

Trust Your Instincts

A message aimed at me. Awesome!!

Today's Angel Card Message for Monday, October 10, 2016

The Queen of Autumn (Pentacles) reminds you to take time to consider what you want out of any situation, which may come up suddenly. Instead of reacting to something that occurs, tune in and seek out a creative approach, which will be an unexpected response. Yet, it will help you to manifest the best outcome, and be of great assistance to everyone involved. You may need to seek out someone like our queen, who is very adept at guiding you to shape an idea or goal in a very better way. This person might be of assistance in helping you turn your dreams into a success. Perhaps, you have been observing your situation from the wrong point of view. You're clear about what you want, which you are lacking, that it's distracting you from discerning what steps you should follow, in order to start experiencing it. However, there's a sense that some of the details of things you want to see are beginning to come into focus. You'll take some creative risk or advice, which will launch new possibilities and financial opportunities through this process. Pay attention to persons, who are dedicated to helping you fulfill your commitment to your dreams, and willing to provide some of the advantages you need to do so. Gifts transpire at the right moment when you are fully receptive.

Think of the Queen of Autumn as the goddess of the harvest season. There is an opportunity for you to reap the benefits of what you've sown. You can see that her ability to focus within allows her to tap into the infinite flow of abundance, which she's able to conjure at her will. She's reminding you that you have the gift to change your circumstances by giving yourself permission to believe you deserve what you desire. It's also a time of discernment. You can't keep offering more questions to answers, which are already inside you. When you choose the direction of your desire, more answers unfold naturally leading always toward further information and inspirational experiences. Her long flowing robes indicate, that she is always moving with the flow, even if the conditions aren't favorable. She knows resistance amplifies the unwanted. She's patient about what she believes in, and doesn't cut corners to achieve her goals. Her greatest joy is discovering new possibilities and opportunities, as they unfold within the process of shaping and sharing her desires.

The Queen of Autumn lives fully in each present moment and is receptive to all sorts of ideas and input. This way it allows her to draw from a variety what she likes. It provides her with choices, which she divines from within. If it doesn't resonate with her, she won't second guess her instincts. She has a keen sense about what's right and wrong, which is why most find her guidance to be sound and reasonable. Her heart is brave and strong. It feels like you're becoming more secure about what your heart really wants. Her creativity flows freely, because she always applies her talents to the things she loves. This aspect of your soul is calling you to make choices like this, which help you to shift into a position of prosperity and happiness. It doesn't mean that you have to drop everything at once, that you've been doing. However, you're being encouraged to allow yourself to embrace changes that are practical and appropriate for you to begin. You may not feel like you're ready for these important decisions, but your spirit is!

Decisive signs will appear to help you become certain of the best way for you to go. Listen carefully to thoughts that repeat in your heart, which seem to keep coming to you. It's similar to a tune that pops into your mind, and no matter what, you can't stop humming or singing it all day. These moments are not coincidences. You're receiving a message from your angels and God, which they are playing in your heart. No matter how much you try to resist it, it stays right there making you happy and fulfilled. It would seem there's no way to escape it. Another way they may get a message through is by using speech. I've had this experience of thinking to say one thing, when I keep repeating another during a reading or when talking to someone. I clearly have this strong knowing and conviction, that what I'm saying, not what I am thinking, is a message. You'll get it, because you can't override the impulse. They have a way of using impulses to foster or highlight clear signs of inspired action to pursue. It's equally important not to become derailed by a negative perception of the details. At this point, you may not be seeing all the facts in the best context, which is distorting the true outcome.

At this point, don't take conflicts too seriously. It's important to lighten up your attitude and find more ways to enjoy what you're doing. If you're not careful, you can easily overlook opportunities headed in your direction. Like the Queen of Autumn, you have to be ready for whatever comes to you by staying in touch with your inner desires and truth. No matter what happens, she never loses her connection to it or her intention. It helps her know which choices are suitable for her. She has developed a penchant for rewarding experiences, and people she can collaborate with. There's a synergy she can always spot. It helps her to read where a successful opportunity is possible. Her advice is to focus on goals that spark your heart and have strong impulses with many leads. Also, don't force anything to happen. Notice what's happening in relationship between you and your purpose. If it's for the best, you'll feel a strong surge of momentum and positive influence. You won't have to seek out the details you want, you will feel guided by them, as if you are being drawn to what you need instead. Trust your true instincts! May the Source be with you always!

Berry

It Hurts

EXCALIBUR...

The Need For Change

What do you do when you feel the need for change? Do you sit idly by and hope it will happen? Do you implore other people to intervene? The only way for a problem to resolve is if YOU are willing to pursue a solution. Usually, this requires standing up, being counted, making your voice heard and your desire felt. Some of the situations you find yourself in are far from ideal. But there are avenues that you have yet to discover. Don't be so worried about the blind alleys that you refuse to explore the roads to success. Now is the time for personal growth and to find new meaning in your life's journey.

Heading For A Happy Outcome

Isn't it interesting how often times when things look as if they're going to be problematic then just at the right moment things begin to work out well. If you could see, long in advance, that you're heading for a happy outcome, you wouldn't get the same sense of triumph and relief when it finally arrived. So, can you take your current high level of concern about a sensitive matter as a sign that, probably, all will be fine? I believe so. Especially if you have a good friend that you can turn to. Someone you know that can be an invaluable source of inspiration, a big influence, a bundle of positive thinking and bravery. Sometimes with all that you're facing, it's good to have them in your corner. They can give you some insight as to how to get through the trials ahead? It certainly helps to get a different perspective on matters rather than trying to deal with them on your own. Actually, there's much you can achieve. There are prizes on offer and finish lines in sight. Find an encouraging co-pilot, and you'll cross them all the faster.

Enjoy The Ride

Why is it that we always seem to focus on the future? On what is yet to come and on what is yet to be. It is no wonder then that our lives are just flashing by us like a fast car. One minute it is Easter and the next we have Christmas looming ahead! If we are so prone to living for what is to come then why not open the book on the last page? Or download a TV series and watch it backwards from the final episode? Why follow the story from the start? All we're ever going to find out is what happened, so, surely the sooner we make that discovery, the sooner we can be satisfied with the end result? There. That illustrates the consequences of trying to think too hard about what lies ahead for now. We're not at the end...we're just at the start. We need to stop projecting into the future and just enjoy the ride in the here and now. Live in the now. Enjoy each day as it comes!

Subconscious Urges

The subconscious mind is a powerful thing. Not many of us are even aware just how powerful! Your subconscious mind is like a huge memory bank. Its capacity is virtually unlimited. It permanently stores everything that ever happens to you.Your subconscious mind makes everything you say and do fit a pattern consistent with your self-concept, your master program. It does not think or reason independently, it merely obeys the commands it receives from your conscious mind. Just as your conscious mind can be thought of as the gardener, planting seeds, your subconscious mind can be thought of as the garden, or fertile soil, in which the seeds germinate and grow. Your conscious mind commands and your subconscious mind obeys.Your subconscious can therefore be your greatest ally! We are all led inwardly by deep subconscious urges. Profound, primeval passions just aren't polite. The subconscious mind just doesn't care if they're socially acceptable. It scoff's at our efforts to suppress them. It is determined to set our schedules. Now, some controversial questions. What do you dream of? What's causing an emotional commotion? Acknowledge and pursue these hopes, these emotions. They can move you in a very positive direction! It is the perfect time to regain your balance, to straighten out whatever in your life is out of line and to make a new start.

The Aftertaste

Sometimes we need to stir things up. Sometimes we're rudely shaken out of a comfortable ride. The path to fulfillment isn't all sunshine and rainbows...we all eat pavement or gravel once in a while. Is it pleasant? No. Will it ultimately be good for us? Yes. Then how should we greet these unappealing appetisers? You'll inevitably face a choice of whether you react to a development with a smile and a flourish or a grunt and a grimace. Now's the time to kill with kindness and disarm with charm. Let a laugh pass your lips and you'll be pleasantly surprised by the aftertaste.

Numbers

Numerologists tell us that life is about numbers. If we can only understand natural sequences, we can gain spectacular insight into the secrets of the universe. Accountants also think life comes down to numbers. If our balance sheet is healthy, all's well. If there's a deficit, all is bad. But life is not all about numbers. It's about hearts and souls, love, passion and inspiration. Look carefully at what the numbers in your life are telling you. They could just bring an abundance of what really counts.

Hiding Behind A Mask

I have to sit here and wonder about some people. I have had quite a few friend requests in the past from people I do not know. Now, being me, and being a Scorpio on top of that, I do not easily open up to people that I do not know. It takes me time to suss someone out and it takes me time to feel comfortable enough to trust someone and then be prepared to open up to them. That is just me. So now when I think back to these people that I do not know who send me friend requests. They are so upfront by asking me for my e-mail address and phone number so that they can chat more with me. Ummmm...why? You sent me a friend request on FB. We can chat there. Why must we at this stage take it to another platform? Then they seem to proceed to keep wanting to know more about me. I however feel it is a "give and take" situation. You ask me something - and I will answer. I then ask you something - and EXPECT an answer...but yet often times these answers are just avoided. This person just is not forthcoming...or will completely evade the question I asked. Then I have a look at their profiles. Mostly there are no friends to show or no friends have liked any pics they have posted. The pics are often so random or are just a few profile pics. Nothing else. No quotes. No status updates. Nothing. Then I look at photos. There are no albums. There are no personal photos. No family members. So being me. I think to myself - why? Then the best is the majority of these people have their relationship status as "Widow". Now, I am very sad for those who have lost their spouse to widowhood. But,  a widow is a WOMAN whose spouse has died, while a WIDOWER is a man in that situation. So I now have to wonder, surely you as a man should know the difference. Then it amazes me that these people will say that they are from a surrounding area close to me but yet they went to University in Russia or some random University in some never heard of place! Then the next best thing is that they are all mostly Petrochemical Engineers! What is it about me that I attract all these Petrochemical Engineers. Inevitably they are all on some contract in either Cape Town or Richards Bay. The best is those that always ensure they have a profile pic with a child. Its like they think this will give them extra brownie points or something. My point with all of this is...DUDE I KNOW you are NOT who you are saying you are! I am not just some dumb blonde!! I have the potential to see through your facade! My question to you is WHY are you hiding behind someone else's name? WHY are you not posting a photo of who you REALLY are? What is it that you have to hide? You say you want to get to know me better. You say you are an honest person. REALLY???!!! You actually BELIEVE you are an honest person when you have stolen someone else's name and someone else's photo? Do you even know that that is called Identity theft and you can be arrested for that? I am very open to meeting new people but if you are going to be pretending you are someone else, well, sorry for you, then I do NOT have time for you! You see I am so tired of all the bull shit and the lies. I have had that so often in my life that I can see it from a mile away!! However, IF you can be an honest person by just being who you are and not hide behind a fake name and profile, I will most gladly be your friend. I do not judge people who are honest about who they really are. Every one deserves to have friends. I however am only open to friends who are genuine and real.

I Will Still Rise

What Do I Really Want

What do I really want? It's not the same as what I ought to want. I want to be happy! That is what I want. Am I happy? Hmmm....I sit and ponder on this for a while. Yes - I can actually say I AM happy. I am not deliriously happy. Just happy. I would love to be deliriously happy but I am quite content with just being happy for now.

We're supposed to want what society wants us to want. But we're all idiosyncratic, even if it only goes as far as preferring 2.3 children to 2.4. Pffft...that does not even apply to me as I only have 1.1! 

I guess its about being honest about one's desires. It's okay to go after something different, if it doesn't impinge on anyone else's happiness. Let me introduce you to two of the greatest thieves of happiness. Their names are outrage and umbrage. A sneaky pair, they wriggle into our thoughts, taking offence here and registering deep disapproval there. There's nothing wrong with recognising something is wrong. But there is nothing right about welling up with righteous indignation either. Its about surrounding yourself with the right people to help you understand your feelings. 

Then, they say, finding the right person to share your life with will help make desires a reality. Hmmm...is that fact or fiction? I cannot answer that. I am still looking for the right person. I think, at the end of the day it is about being brave enough to accept yourself and you'll find that you're much happier for it. Yes indeed, I am actually much happier....

Shine Bright Like A Diamond

I Am Worthy

I always thought there was something romantic about fighting for someone. About winning them back. Eventual happiness. But as I sit here with stones in my chest where hope used to lie. I have learned that there is nothing lovely about having to continuously convince someone to love you. I learned that there is no use in hopeless pleas of trying to make someone stay. I have come to realise I am too good to chase someone who does not know my worth and I am too tired to keep waiting for someone who doesn't acknowledge my value. I want love to be simple. I want to trust without thinking. I want to be generous with my affection and patience and love unconditionally. I want to be loved unconditionally. I shouldn't have to fight so hard for it. I do not have the time to prove to someone that I am worth it. I shouldn't have to prove any of that. I am worth more than that. It doesn't matter to me anymore what people think of me. My focus is not on small talk. I have better things to do with my life, like become a better woman. I don't care what people say behind my back anymore because most of them never have the guts to say it to my face anyway. I don't care anymore if people believe in me or if they are going to pick up and leave. What I offered was more than good enough and anyone who wanted to walk away from that...well that was on them.  

Wish You Were Here

Stranger In My House

It seems I have a stranger in my house. An unseen stranger for that matter. I have no idea who this could be. How do I know that there is a stranger in my house? Well, it all started the first weekend that I had moved in. It was the first Friday night. I was unpacking boxes in my bedroom. Rusty, my cat, watching me lazily from her position in the passage leading to the main-en-suite bathroom. Next thing I hear this sound, like a crackling noise, almost like when you crumple up a firm plastic bag. I happened to see Rusty bolt out of the bedroom at this noise, but I was so engrossed in the unpacking that I did not think anything at that point. After a while I saw Rusty come back to the same spot she had and she was just settling down to relax, when once again this noise was there. Again Rusty bolted but this time she came creeping back, like a leopard stalking its prey, ever cautiously toward the bathroom door, eyes wide like saucers! I then thought I better go see as well. So there I am creeping from my side of the room and Rusty from the other side. I get to the door and peek into the bathroom. I don't see anything. I go further into the bathroom. Next thing there is this noise again. Rusty and I both bolt out of the bathroom!! I stand at the door and wait a while. Nothing. I decide I better carry on packing. Its getting close to midnight and I am exhausted. As I turn, this noise once again happens. By now my hair is just about standing straight up. I run to call Jason from upstairs. I tell him he must come quick as there is something strange happening in my bathroom. I think he could hear from the tone of my voice that I was serious as he quickly came down. Normally he would take quite a while if I called him for something. So, there is Jason. In my bathroom, looking around. I tell him the noise seems to come from the bath. As Jason leans over the bath the noise comes. Jason jumped back in fright! Now, for Jason to shit himself, you must know this is something legit! Hahahaha. We deliberate what it could be. I say to Jason that maybe its Jolie's spirit and she is playing ice hockey in the bath to let us know she is on the other side. This was when my cat Jolie had gone missing with the move. She had this thing where she would jump in the empty bath, knock the plug into the bath (the plug was a loose plug with no chain), and then she would swipe the plug around in the bath like a ice hockey puck. Whenever she did this I would comment that Jolie is playing ice hockey again...teeheeheee...Anyway, getting back to that episode. Jason eventually convinced me that it was probably the bath expanding and contracting because of the heat. We were at that time experiencing very hot weather. Then a few weeks later, Jason comments to me that he wanted to get a towel out of the cupboard in the spare room. He says when he went in there he found the cupboard door open already and swore blind that he did not open it. Again we discount this. Then there came the morning where I honestly had to think and consider if I was going crazy!! The night before, Jason went to stay with his girlfriend. As he left I locked the front door and slid the dead bolts in as well. I remember thinking that Jeremy must be wondering why I am sliding the dead bolts in so early as I usually only slide them in at about 11 at night. That night it was about 8. Jeremy is my neighbour. The dead bolts make a huge noise when I slide them in and ofcourse in the stillness of the night the sound really carries! Next morning as I wake up I say to myself that I better go undo the deadbolts in case Jason comes back while I am in the shower, otherwise he won't be able to get in. I say to myself I will open my bedroom curtains and make the bed when I come back. I come into the lounge and see that Rusty wants to go out the patio door, so I open the sliding door for her and then turn to go to the front door to undo the dead bolts. As I get to the front door, I freeze!! The frigging deadbolts have been undone!! I remember standing there and replaying my movements in my head as I am now confused. Did I lock the deadbolts the night before? Yes, I know I did because I remember thinking the thought about Jeremy. I KNOW I slid the deadbolts in. I HEARD them as I locked them. Did I first undo the deadbolts and then open the patio door for Rusty? I stand and contemplate if this is what I did. Again everything replaying in my mind. No. I definitely did not! Now I am doubting myself. Eventually I shrug it off. I go to the bedroom to open my curtains and make the bed. Oh my G-d!! I once again freeze in the passage to my bedroom. The curtains are open!!!!!! WTF is going on? Once again, thoughts flying through my mind - replaying my actions of the morning as I got up. I can see myself getting out of bed, going to the lounge and opening the patio door and then going to the front door!! Am I now going insane or what?! I am stunned beyond belief. Was I not completely awake that I did this? No. Impossible. I remember I woke up gradually. I remember lying in bed for a while thinking of what lay ahead for me that day and what needed to be done. Its not like I suddenly woke and got out of bed still half asleep. The events of that morning bugged me the whole day! Once again I eventually just let it slide until the next incident. Since I got the kitten, Lucy, Rusty refused to sleep on the bed with me. She would go sleep in the room upstairs. One Saturday morning I get up and come into the lounge to find Rusty on the couch all huddled up and she keeps looking upstairs with eyes wide. I ask her what does she see? Yes, I talk to my cats...teeheehee...she looks at me but immediately her eyes sway upstairs again. I think this is weird. Rusty comes over to me in the kitchen but she keeps checking behind her. I think this is strange. But now I recall when I was sitting on the patio with Lucy on my lap, there were a couple of times where she would look over my shoulder and up at the stairs as if she was watching someone come down the stairs. I then also recall that whenever Jason comes down the stairs all three my cats, Jolie, Rusty and Lucy, bolt away. Which is really strange as they have never run away from him before. Getting back to that day. I get my Muesli and tea and go sit out on the patio. This is my morning ritual. The cats join me. Each doing their own thing. This particular morning Rusty comes out with me but she sits just at the sliding door on the patio and she crouches down and just keeps looking upstairs. I sit and watch her reactions as I eat my breakfast. I know my cats well enough to know when they are not happy with something. So I get up and go upstairs to see what is going on there. Nothing out of the ordinary. I go to the steps and try and coax Rusty upstairs to come see that there is nothing there. She will not budge. Usually if I call any one of my cats to come to me, they do, in an instant. I come downstairs to fetch my empty cup and bowl and take them to the kitchen. All three cats follow me to the kitchen and are waiting for a treat. Next thing there is this crash from upstairs. Something had fallen over. I am on my own. The cats immediately crouch down. I stand and listen. I look at Rusty - she is petrified! Jolie and Lucy are kind of mellow but alert. What on earth is going on in this house? Well, as usual, I have to go see what is happening. No one else to do it but me. So I gradually creep up the stairs. Get to the top and check. I don't see anything at first but then I see the crutches that Jason uses when he is injured have fallen over. I go put them upright again. I think this is really strange. They have been standing in the same corner for at least two months, what made them fall over now all of sudden. I am dumbfounded. I then eventually have to consider the fact that I am living in a house where someone else is still residing. Who, I have no idea? I went downstairs and got some incense and a white candle, brought it upstairs and lit it. I said aloud to whoever, that I know they are here and that they cannot scare me. I let them go in peace by lighting the candle and the incense. It took at least a week before Rusty would go upstairs again. Whether that being is still here, I don't know. I have accepted that if they are, then so be it. Why? Well, I am quite used to having encounters from others on the other side. Oh, before I forget. That night I was speaking to my sister Angie on the phone, telling her what had happened, before I could finish the story, the line suddenly went dead. Angie phoned me back and said jokingly that they don't want me to tell her what happened. I laughed, because that was my immediate thought as well.

I will leave those other encounters for the next post. See below the pics of Rusty. The pics were taken over a period of about 2 hours. She sat in one spot and kept looking upstairs.