Talking And Listening

Most people find talking easier than listening, we often accept things that we should really stand up to. It's hard to recognise passivity, because it can be so easily disguised behind being open, considerate and easy-going. If it's clear that there's something hanging in the air that really needs to be spoken out loud, just remember that there's no rush. Take your time if you want to ensure your message is clearly understood.

On The Brink of Civil War

Is this what it is going to come to? I think the minority here in South Africa need to prepare for the worst. I am not feeling at ease at all after listening to a video released after a parliamentary meeting to discuss amendments to the land expropriation act. Each and every member of the various political groups have said that if the bill is not amended according to their needs and wants, that they will take the land from white South Africans by force. They have said that the white people do not belong in South Africa. That the white people are criminals and that they are foreigners and need to go back to Europe. Quite ironic considering there are how many black people in Europe and the USA from South Africa that went overseas for better education. If the white people are not welcome in South Africa then they must get their black people out of Europe and the USA and where ever else they may be in foreign countries. What is good for the goose is good for the gander. Why must there be double standards? Let them then have South Africa for themselves. Let's see how they will manage without the white people. They seem to forget or most do not realise, that it is the minority (+- 3 million) white people that are supporting +-50 million black people by contributing to the economy and by paying taxes, and fuel levies and VAT and covering all the costs for the corrupt officials that get taken to court. Not one of them realise that it is actually the Government that they voted for that is going to bleed them dry. Most of these black people do not understand how the Expropriation of Land with no compensation Act works. They think they are going to own the land. Well, they are in for a big surprise when they discover the Government owns the land and that they will have to rent that land from the Government. It is heartbreaking to see your home land being ripped to pieces by a Government and its supporters. What was once my beautiful homeland has turned into something from a horror movie. The roads are disintegrating, the filth that lies all over, the incompetent services, the crime...the gun shots at night...the sirens every single night...the list goes on and on and on...The horrendous farm murders...the raping of women and children...the vandalism and looting...I think I need to talk to my family here in South Africa. We need to seriously start looking at getting out before it's too late...very difficult to do when this is the country, the land you born in...your home country...and you are an average South African citizen just trying to get by! I can now fully understand how refugees must feel when they try and find a place of safety!! I just wish I can find the video where the members of parliament all say how they feel about the white people (it is doing the rounds on FB too)!! 

If you are not in South Africa and are based Internationally then the documentary below (all fact) will be an eye opener for you, and it would be appreciated if you could share it far and wide. 

If you did watch the documentary above, yes, it covers the situation regarding our white farmers. It shows how the farmers live behind security gates, cctv cameras and security bars. It is mentioned about sleeping with Pepper spray under your pillow. It is however not only the farmers who live in fear and behind security within their homes. It is all the white people here in South Africa. I post below pictures of security at my home. I live in a Residential suburb in a security complex with high walls and electric fencing.

Security gate at my Patio door

Security gate to my bedroom

My Pepper spray

My security gate to the court yard 

The unit opposite me with security gates at doors and windows

Learning To Fly

The Action Begins

Here we go! My heart is racing...the reality has hit home. I have to start packing...oh my goodness gracious! All good and well packing but I still have no where to go to...not yet anyway. I am viewing a stunning place on Sunday! It is perfect...only problem is it is available now for 1 August and not for 1 September...panic stations are high! The Landlord has said that she may just be prepared to wait if she cannot find a tenant by 1 August 2018. Well, if it's meant to be it will be. I feel it has my name written on it. If I get the unit it will be a huge adaptation for me and the cats. I have no garden...only two balconies. I will have to go down into the communal garden with the cats when they need some exercise...that sounds funny! hahaha....Rusty will be fine as she is a house cat. Lucy I will have to keep locked up until she is settled. She will eventually go exploring. The gardens in the complex are awesome though. It's like a holiday resort...there are three clubhouses, tennis courts a Restaurant and laundry within the complex. Not that I need the laundry...I will be able to walk around if I need fresh air. I am now getting ahead of myself! Will have to wait and see still. But, yes...the reality has set in as today I saw my current place advertised on Private Property and the Agent is already bringing a whole lot of people tomorrow at 13:30. Fingers crossed the Landlord for the other place is prepared to wait, then I can breathe a sigh of relief!!

Never Give Up

When you find yourself between a rock and a hard place...What to do? People say it’s hard to wait around for something you know might never happen, but it’s harder to give up when you know it’s everything you want. They say never give up on something you really want. It's difficult to wait, but worse to regret. Being torn between all these scenarios is driving me insane. Do I wait? But what am I waiting for? It may never happen, what then? I could be wasting time that is precious. They say time waits for no man. Will I have regrets? Ofcourse I will! But, I am done waiting...nearly a year has passed...another year...another day...another week...another month. What more am I to do? I feel I am done. I have done what I could. It's now not in my hands anymore. Do I still really want what I want. Yes I do!!

Scaling Down

So another decision had to be made. One that is the bane of my life. A house move!! Moving isn’t anyone’s favourite thing to do. Aside from the physical process of shifting everything I own (or at least some of it as I will have to get rid of a few things) into a new space, there are many other factors I had to consider, such as why waste money on space I don’t need! It’s just me and my cats now, so why not downsize to a smaller place to save not only on my rent, but also on utilities, repairs, cleaning time, and more (perhaps most importantly) my sanity? I really do not need a home with 2 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms and a loft! With me starting with presentations now on Saturdays, my time is also limited. I clean my own home and do my own gardening. I only do that on weekends and alternate between the house and the garden. As much as I love gardening, it is also just becoming too much for me. And yes, people ask me why I don't buy. The simple answer is, I do not want to be tied to South Africa with a mortgage. When the time comes for me to leave South Africa I want to do it as quickly as possible. It is still my goal to get out of this country. I just wish that it could be now, right now anywhere overseas would be like icing on the cake for me! I guess the challenges are worth the struggle. The time came for me to take a step back and think about how nice it would be on my stress levels and wallet if I could start fresh. Sometimes, life deals us cards that are like flashing neon signs stating, “GO FORWARD AND START ANEW.” At least this time it is my decision to make a move. Not like the previous time where I had no choice. Interesting too how I made this decision around the just recent Full Moon. Full moons are a time to cleanse and to release that which no longer serves you so that you can move forward on a path that is right for you. That is exactly what I did. I asked the Universe to help me release all negativity and to help me let go of all that no longer serves me and to guide me forward on the path that is best for me. So, in two months time I am on the move. Quite appropriate since it will be the 1st day of Spring! I just hope I can find something that suits me in these two months as I hate taking a place just for the sake of having a roof over my head. I want a place that will feel like "home". I raise my glass and say "Cheers - here's to new beginnings!"

Twin Flames

Wow! I was about to log out of my computer when I was prompted to go to this folder. Something said that it needed to be cleaned out. It was not on my to-do list to do any cleaning out of any folders. I just looked at all the bumpf in this particular folder and was about to delete the whole lot when once again I was prompted to see what this strange note said. I don't even remember when I saved this.  What I do know is that it gave me goosebumps when I read it, and right there and then I knew I had to save this again to a place where I would see it. I have to wonder, was I meant to see this for some reason? Perhaps a message from, or to my Twin Flame. This is just so incredibly beautiful...Fabulous!! It also brought to mind the song by Leona Lewis and Avicii - "We Can Collide". Goodness me! This is very interesting how the lyrics of that song tie in with this note. I am in awe...synchronicity or coincidence is the question!