Exactly so. I recognise this connection for what it is. I fought to resolve the issue more than a year ago! I was always the one to reach out in that friendship, always the one to call!! Why should I bring shame into the equation by deciding to turn my back and walk away? I tried to reach out. I tried to resolve the issue. Why should I feel shameful by turning my back when I was not being met halfway? If they really cared they would have fought to be in my life when they saw I had turned my back. I have no reason to feel shameful. No. Absolutely not! Back at the ranch they are gossiping about how awful I am to all and sundry, when in fact they should really put themselves under the microscope! I did not choose to become ill at that time! Trigeminal Neuralgia is a F-ing Bitch to deal with!! It disrupts your whole life!! Now, this time, all I did was congratulate a new Mother (my ex friend's daughter) on the birth of her precious baby girl and I was shunned BIG TIME! Oh well, what is done is done. Let me not stress myself out as that is one of the key factors that triggers TN. I know MY truth! I am not going to stick around where I am not wanted!! I wish them all well on their journey ahead. I choose myself!! I am doing right by me! It took me way too long to realise that you shouldn't stay friends with people who never asked how you're doing. I now see that things are happening *for* me. End of story.
