I've Hated This Woman

I’ve hated this woman. I’ve not loved her at full capacity. I’ve fed her lies and told her she wasn’t good enough and have allowed others to tell her she wasn't good enough. I’ve allowed her to be broken. I've allowed others to treat her dis-respectfully. I’ve allowed her to run through brick walls and battle for others who won’t even stand for her. I couldn’t stop individuals from abandoning her, yet I’ve seen her get up and stand to be a light to the world and love others despite all. I have stood paralyzed by fear while she fought battles in her mind, heart and soul.

This woman has screwed up many times, as a girlfriend, a wife, a mother, a daughter, a sister, or as a friend, because she doesn’t always say or do the "right things". She has a smart mouth, and she has secrets. She has scars...because she has a history.

Some people love this woman, some like her, and some people don't care for her at all.

She has done good in her life. She has done bad in her life. She goes days without makeup, or shaving her legs sometimes. She doesn’t get dressed up half the time. She is random and sometimes silly. She will not pretend to be someone she is not. She is who she is.

At times she was clinging to the woman she had known and at the same time watching another materialise in the mirror before her.

Every mistake, failure, trial, disappointment, success, joy, and achievement has made her the woman she is today.

You can love her or not. But if she loves you, she will do it with her whole heart, and she will make no apologies for the way she is.

This Woman is a WARRIOR. She’s not perfect but God calls her WORTHY! She’s UNSTOPPABLE. Gracefully broken but beautifully standing. She is loved. She is life. She is transformation. She is Grace. She is BRAVE!

I am the source of my own happiness. I am. I am that which I am.