The Outsider - Part 18

It has now been two Christmases without the old man.  The sister’s often speaking about the guilt they feel about how they had treated the old man and how impatient they had been with him, but then consoling each other by saying that had he not been such a hard man, had he treated them better then his life would have been so different and they would have gladly visited him more often.  He had driven the wedge between them.  Each has different emotions to deal with.  Most have guilt only … she however has to deal with guilt and anger and hurt, towards him …The question always remaining … Why had he hated her so much?????  Just now the other day she was visiting the second eldest sister and the second eldest was telling her how different her holiday had been now visiting the third eldest sister … how this time she just had to think about herself and do things she enjoyed without having to worry about the old man.  The times he went with on holiday … how he was left at the house in his chair while they went to the beach … but again it was his choice … he did not like the heat … he could hardly walk as he had also suffered a stroke while their mother was still alive … so many guilty feelings … that they were not the best of daughter’s … She then told her sister that her feelings were so different … they were not so much guilt … that they were more along the lines of feeling tremendous hurt and anger at how he had treated her.  The second eldest then said that she recalled how he had lain in his hospital bed and just glared at her … So … the glare from those ice blue eyes directed at her did not go unnoticed …..