Saturday, August 15, 2020
Wednesday, August 12, 2020
The Proof
This guy is really so good! Again, it is a general reading, however I felt very much like it was a personal reading for me. It resonated completely!
Yes...I am giving something one last shot. There are reasons. It is my destiny. My personal vision for my life. (the Hierophant) there are things I have to learn. Yes! I have to hit the books again!! I have gained a lot of wisdom and the beeper confirms it. Definitely giving it one last shot. No, it does not pertain to love. Yes, I am so over all the Bozo's! I don't want to be with them. When I was married, I lost my husband to the mistress of gambling and alcohol. After my divorce the men that entered my life just went from bad to worse. They were liars, manipulators...players and cheaters. I dreamed for years of a man who couldn't live without me, a man who pictured my face when he closed his eyes, who loved me when I was a mess in the morning and accepted when dinner was late and even when it ended up being burnt to a piece of charcoal! I look at my son and see how he absolutely loves Storm after all this time. How when he looks at her, you can actually see the love in his eyes for her. I have always wanted someone to treat me the way he treats Storm, I just didn't know that I'd have to give birth to him! Quite ironic...At least I know there is such a man on this earth...I could not be more proud of my son! As for me...pfffttt...at this point in time I don't think there is anyone who could check all the boxes. I AM setting myself free. I AM releasing myself from the restriction (eight of swords). The REASON is because of my beliefs (the Hierophant). I AM challenging those beliefs in my own life. As for the Knight in shining Armour...no. I don't believe in fairy tales anymore! Goes back to my belief systems. Trust? I don't know if I am capable to trust anymore. Too many disillusionments in my life, however, I am trusting that the Universe is leading me in the right direction this time. The sky is the limit for me (the High Priestess). I am working on something "old". The proof or something needs to be proved. Yes, I need to prove something to myself. I am trying again. I need to push myself (the coming to the edge card). I have all of this pressure in my life because of what I believe. I am changing the way I look at things (the Two of Wands). The learning rings true. In order for me to get where I want I first need to do a course. I am putting that into action. I have let the past go (the Fox). I want to move, but the timing is not right again (Five of clubs). Whoever is moving towards me...well that would have to be left in the hands of fate...I believe what will be, will be (the Marriage card). (Six of Diamonds) Definitely time to be bold and be assertive!
Yes...I am giving something one last shot. There are reasons. It is my destiny. My personal vision for my life. (the Hierophant) there are things I have to learn. Yes! I have to hit the books again!! I have gained a lot of wisdom and the beeper confirms it. Definitely giving it one last shot. No, it does not pertain to love. Yes, I am so over all the Bozo's! I don't want to be with them. When I was married, I lost my husband to the mistress of gambling and alcohol. After my divorce the men that entered my life just went from bad to worse. They were liars, manipulators...players and cheaters. I dreamed for years of a man who couldn't live without me, a man who pictured my face when he closed his eyes, who loved me when I was a mess in the morning and accepted when dinner was late and even when it ended up being burnt to a piece of charcoal! I look at my son and see how he absolutely loves Storm after all this time. How when he looks at her, you can actually see the love in his eyes for her. I have always wanted someone to treat me the way he treats Storm, I just didn't know that I'd have to give birth to him! Quite ironic...At least I know there is such a man on this earth...I could not be more proud of my son! As for me...pfffttt...at this point in time I don't think there is anyone who could check all the boxes. I AM setting myself free. I AM releasing myself from the restriction (eight of swords). The REASON is because of my beliefs (the Hierophant). I AM challenging those beliefs in my own life. As for the Knight in shining Armour...no. I don't believe in fairy tales anymore! Goes back to my belief systems. Trust? I don't know if I am capable to trust anymore. Too many disillusionments in my life, however, I am trusting that the Universe is leading me in the right direction this time. The sky is the limit for me (the High Priestess). I am working on something "old". The proof or something needs to be proved. Yes, I need to prove something to myself. I am trying again. I need to push myself (the coming to the edge card). I have all of this pressure in my life because of what I believe. I am changing the way I look at things (the Two of Wands). The learning rings true. In order for me to get where I want I first need to do a course. I am putting that into action. I have let the past go (the Fox). I want to move, but the timing is not right again (Five of clubs). Whoever is moving towards me...well that would have to be left in the hands of fate...I believe what will be, will be (the Marriage card). (Six of Diamonds) Definitely time to be bold and be assertive!
Thursday, August 6, 2020
Trying To Make Sense Out Of This Connection
You had my attention all the time....
This resonates 110% if I place myself as the person on her right (or on viewing face on, then it would be the left of the screen) where she refers to "you".
Perception is in the eye of the beholder. There's a lot of thought, but not a lot of talk. You are certainly not going to chase. It's a weird standoff. They (the other party) feels sad that you (me) walked away from the connection, but feeling justified in cutting the connection, they feel justified in their decisions??
How do you really feel? Emotionally it gets to me...I'll put my attention elsewhere and I will bury that emotion...Note the caution: I am carrying the weight of the emotion into the next chapter...when you carry the weight of the past into the present it tends to repeat itself in the future. Be cautious with that energy. Distraction, distraction, distraction...oh yeah...there's those emotions again (yip...exactly that).You can feel those depths of those emotions and bury them and still be able to live a pretty content life. You'd feel a lot lighter if you just released that. Focus on the things that build you up. If it keeps coming up, then maybe you do need to communicate. (Yes, I don't want to do that because the other person restricted communication from me).
What does the other person feel? What do they want? They want communication. They are restricted but they want it. This person genuinely wants my attention...(hmmm, I don't know about that, I highly doubt it as I think they are committed elsewhere). This other person may feel that I will not accept what they want to say (IF they do want to say something, then they must say it, I will listen). I have all their attention...(Do I?) Or vice versa - They want my attention (yet they don't know that they have had all of my attention all of this time). We could both be doing the same thing!!
What are my hopes? I want that enlightenment. I want the truth without having to look for the truth. I want another perspective. What are their hopes? They hope that things work in their favour.
Future energy. I have the choice (free will). I have really let this get to me emotionally. I tried to detach from this multiple times. It DOES intrigue my mind as to why that keeps coming back to me. I WANT to know! There IS NO direct communication. I am trying to make sense of all of it.
The other person's most likely outcome. The other person chose someone else. (Yes, that became very evident to me). They took action elsewhere. The other person is looking for someone who is on the same page as them (the whole package). They felt they could not keep my attention - for whatever reason they felt justified in it, yet at the same time they want some sort of communication and attention. They feel I would not give them any attention if they tried. They think its not possible. I'm in this space where I feel it's done (because they walked away...that's why I feel it's done). (With regards to the previous reading in mid July - Yes, I did step back because I saw a foto that threw me off and yes, I must not allow myself to get stuck there. I must remind myself how bad ass I am and how valuable I am as a person and just move forward).
With regards to the other person. We both want attention but don't want to give attention, and as long as long as that continues, it will continue. Either way, the other person is not going to do anything that will impede their confidence, values or whatever. They're looking for a like mind.
....Could be dealing with another Scorpio. This is a general reading and therefore does not apply to everyone. It resonated on my side with regards to me - as for the other person - I really have no idea if it resonates with them - I can only assume or guess what the other person MIGHT be feeling or thinking. For all I know they could be feeling absolutely nothing...which could only mean that there is absolutely no connection anymore. Who knows...without communication there will never be an answer...
This resonates 110% if I place myself as the person on her right (or on viewing face on, then it would be the left of the screen) where she refers to "you".
Perception is in the eye of the beholder. There's a lot of thought, but not a lot of talk. You are certainly not going to chase. It's a weird standoff. They (the other party) feels sad that you (me) walked away from the connection, but feeling justified in cutting the connection, they feel justified in their decisions??
How do you really feel? Emotionally it gets to me...I'll put my attention elsewhere and I will bury that emotion...Note the caution: I am carrying the weight of the emotion into the next chapter...when you carry the weight of the past into the present it tends to repeat itself in the future. Be cautious with that energy. Distraction, distraction, distraction...oh yeah...there's those emotions again (yip...exactly that).You can feel those depths of those emotions and bury them and still be able to live a pretty content life. You'd feel a lot lighter if you just released that. Focus on the things that build you up. If it keeps coming up, then maybe you do need to communicate. (Yes, I don't want to do that because the other person restricted communication from me).
What does the other person feel? What do they want? They want communication. They are restricted but they want it. This person genuinely wants my attention...(hmmm, I don't know about that, I highly doubt it as I think they are committed elsewhere). This other person may feel that I will not accept what they want to say (IF they do want to say something, then they must say it, I will listen). I have all their attention...(Do I?) Or vice versa - They want my attention (yet they don't know that they have had all of my attention all of this time). We could both be doing the same thing!!
What are my hopes? I want that enlightenment. I want the truth without having to look for the truth. I want another perspective. What are their hopes? They hope that things work in their favour.
Future energy. I have the choice (free will). I have really let this get to me emotionally. I tried to detach from this multiple times. It DOES intrigue my mind as to why that keeps coming back to me. I WANT to know! There IS NO direct communication. I am trying to make sense of all of it.
The other person's most likely outcome. The other person chose someone else. (Yes, that became very evident to me). They took action elsewhere. The other person is looking for someone who is on the same page as them (the whole package). They felt they could not keep my attention - for whatever reason they felt justified in it, yet at the same time they want some sort of communication and attention. They feel I would not give them any attention if they tried. They think its not possible. I'm in this space where I feel it's done (because they walked away...that's why I feel it's done). (With regards to the previous reading in mid July - Yes, I did step back because I saw a foto that threw me off and yes, I must not allow myself to get stuck there. I must remind myself how bad ass I am and how valuable I am as a person and just move forward).
With regards to the other person. We both want attention but don't want to give attention, and as long as long as that continues, it will continue. Either way, the other person is not going to do anything that will impede their confidence, values or whatever. They're looking for a like mind.
....Could be dealing with another Scorpio. This is a general reading and therefore does not apply to everyone. It resonated on my side with regards to me - as for the other person - I really have no idea if it resonates with them - I can only assume or guess what the other person MIGHT be feeling or thinking. For all I know they could be feeling absolutely nothing...which could only mean that there is absolutely no connection anymore. Who knows...without communication there will never be an answer...
Tuesday, July 7, 2020
Earth Tremor
Today I felt an earth tremor. I first heard this rumbling sound - like thunder in the far distance. Next thing I felt the tremor and even my windows rattled! Immediately the song "If the World was ending" came to mind. It got me thinking. We have never had a major earthquake here in South Africa. What would I do if ever there was one? Scary thought. I would rather not dwell on it. Nope. Let me not even go there!! Update: After some research it turns out it was an earthquake. It measured 3.50 on the Richter scale.
Sunday, June 28, 2020
Onai (To See)
Onai is a musical work about persevering through hardships. The message herein is that life is a struggle littered with hills and valleys that can only be navigated by focused resolute individuals, absent of slothfulness. Onai also underlines the importance of offering gratitude to God for the little that we have. In Shona (African language) Onai means "to see" or "behold".
Thursday, June 11, 2020
Freelance Virtual Administrative Personal Assistant
As the corona virus ravages through communities globally. It has caused great moves to play out in the market and individuals have been taking advantage of this. Our lifestyles and more, will, and, have changed.
Over 15 years professional experience in an Administrative Personal Assistant capacity providing support and assistance to both a single department and multiple individuals throughout a company.
A comprehensive working knowledge of various computer applications including MS Word, Excel, Powerpoint and Wordpress.
An independent worker who uses her initiative and organizational skills to get the job done.
My expertise includes:
Crisis moments present opportunity, more sophisticated and flexible use of technology. Unfortunately, those without easy access to broadband will be further disadvantaged. The paradox of online communication will be ratcheted up. It creates more distance, yes, but also more connection, as we communicate more often with people who are physically farther and farther away. The COVID-19 crisis has already forced people back to accepting that expertise matters. People are finding new ways to connect and support each other in adversity. COVID-19 will sweep away many of the artificial barriers to moving more of our lives online. Especially now with so many that have lost their jobs as a result of companies closing. Many companies cannot afford to keep their full staff on in various departments.
Not everything can become virtual, of course. While not every job can be done remotely, many people are learning that the difference between having to put on a tie and commute for an hour or working efficiently at home was always just the ability to download one or two apps plus permission from their boss. In other words, it turns out, an awful lot of meetings really could have been an email. And now they will be.
This was a time for me at looking within and asking: “What can I authentically offer? I have a life, a history. What do people need?” I have experience in a variety of categories that I am able to offer online. I had to reinvent the wheel so to speak. I am now offering my services to any Corporate entity, or individual Business owner, anywhere across the globe. I am offering my services as a Freelance Virtual Administrative Personal Assistant. Virtual Reality allows us to have the experiences we want even if we have to be isolated, quarantined or alone.
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Over 15 years professional experience in an Administrative Personal Assistant capacity providing support and assistance to both a single department and multiple individuals throughout a company.
A comprehensive working knowledge of various computer applications including MS Word, Excel, Powerpoint and Wordpress.
An independent worker who uses her initiative and organizational skills to get the job done.
My expertise includes:
- Drafting any correspondence, emails and agreements
- Proofreading and editing
- Translation from German to English, or Afrikaans to English, or English to Afrikaans – my written German is not that great and therefore do not want to disappoint by translating anything INTO German. I can translate FROM German into English.
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Sunday, June 7, 2020
The Pandemic On My Life
I sit in deep thought and give one big sigh. I question "why" and "how". I reflect. I get angry. Who do I blame for this upheaval in my life? I ask myself: "Where to from here?" This pandemic has wreaked havoc on my plans, my goals and my dreams. It has isolated me from friends, family and neighbours. I long for the friendly, and sometimes biting banter between my family, as we enjoy a meal or coffee and cake together.
How long will this last? Will I still achieve my goals and dreams? I wish I could see a “light at the end of the tunnel” – a tunnel that at this moment appears without end. I feel like I am stuck in a circle! The angst I feel feeds an intense desire for certainty. This pandemic has pulled the rug from under my feet! The seeds I had planted are now frozen. The result of that, well, I had to reinvent the wheel, so to speak. It took some time, but time was endlessly available, thanks to being "house bound". This was no time for complex deliberations.
Another consequence of the pandemic, a positive at least, has increased my sociability and has boosted my appreciation of my family and friends, and even a yearning for warmth and comfort, the realisation that we cannot hack it alone. The pandemic has altered who I am and how I relate to people and the world. I suspect many people will look back and see this as a time when things changed in their lives. I heard this song and it could not be more apt to dealing with the pandemic right now, and with us having a "strawberry full moon" eclipse right now.
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