Thursday, December 29, 2016

End Of 2016

Finally the end of 2016 is looming ahead! As I approach the New Year, I find myself trying to keep my strength up. It's as if I am being besieged. People are asking me to supply far more than I can spare. Situations too are taking it out of me. This explains not only the pressure I feel... it illuminates the opportunities I am facing. But it is time to stop.I have to let go of the pressure, so that I am free to embrace the opportunities that 2017 brings. I'm putting on a brave face. I always do that. But, actually, I need help, support and understanding. I have to be patient. Help is on its way, but it's coming slowly. I have to try to trust that this is happening and, meanwhile, don't give in to pressure. It appears that I can only go so far and then no further. Seemingly, there's a limit to what I can do. Does this make me resentful? I must not let it. That's like a train feeling cross because the tracks are never more than a certain distance apart. The boundaries, the restrictions, the defining lines in my life on all levels exist for a reason. It's a good one. I'm being kept in a position that can ultimately only make me very happy. I need to be less inclined to doubt my circumstances and more prepared to trust my heart. Already this week, I've had to do a lot of soul-searching. But in the process of searching for my soul, I've found it. Isn't that a joyous discovery to take into the New Year? Tick, tock, tick, tock. I know what that sound represents. It's why I should slow down, rather than speed up. Ignore the sense of urgency. Life is too short for hurry and worry. If I were here forever, perhaps I could afford to waste precious moments in a state of terrible tension. But the very brevity of existence means I should savour every second. Go easy as I move towards the New Year. Time to let go of the pressure to get things done. This year has really pulled me through the ringer. Am I glad to see the back of 2016? Absolutely! Today I took my own advice. I slept late. I took my time exercising. I lay in the sun a bit - the first time in a week that I have seen the sun! Its been raining here all week. I sent some e-mails after lunch and posted some ads. That was that. Enough is enough! It is the first time ever that I have worked right through a December month....I am drained. Saturday I go to my happy place in Pennington on the South Coast. Sea, sand and sunshine are beckoning for me to come join them!

Tuesday, December 27, 2016

Mind Reading

Would life not be wonderful if you could read another person's mind?  But, reality is that you can't just expect someone to read your mind. How can they know what you want - especially if you're not even sure you know what you want yourself! Though it may be considered impolite to express a desire or make a request, surely, it's even more anti-social to just sit around, hoping that someone will guess what you're thinking. And, chances are, you'll end up feeling resentful because they haven't read you clearly. If in doubt, speak out!

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

Lightning Flashes

This storm came out of no where last night. At around 11:30 the skies were all clear and I thought to myself "ok, I can leave the sun lounger mattress and the umbrella on the patio as it's not going to rain". I then went and got ready for bed. 20 min later I see this flash of light and at first I thought one of the security lights had blown, when I saw another flash - I looked out the window and it was insane - the sky all closed up - lightning flashes in such quick succession it was like disco lights. I ofcourse did not see what Christo Smith, a photographer in the area where I live, captured with his camera in the foto below. It really is so awesome! I had to race outside in my PJ's and quickly grab everything on the patio to bring inside. That is the only issue I have with where I now live - I do not have a covered patio so whenever it rains I have to cart everything inside. So annoying sometimes!

This is Christo Smith's rendition of last night as follows : 

6 Minutes of Lightning. That's all...

Opportunity "strikes" at the strangest of times. It's late at night, 12:30, and we're about to get ready for bed. A massive electrical storm rushes over us in Northriding with strikes every few seconds, and I knew I had to take a chance.

I had my camera and tripod in the boot of my car which is on the other side of the complex which I live in. I ran across, grabbed them and ran back, set up in a minute and under a car port lodged between two cars I started shooting on Bulb Mode taking several shots.

I got a few strikes and then the severe wind starts blowing the rain directly at me. I had to stop... Rain drops already on my lens, and camera shake from the wind a certainty. I had to see what I got...

I checked; I started shooting at 12:39, and I was forced to stop at 12:45. 6 minutes. I love the Highveld of South Africa...I am Proudly South African.
Canon 6D, Tamron 28-75mm 2.8. Bulb Mode. F5.6. ISO 100.

Wish Lists

With technology these days, online stores allow you to create 'Wish-Lists'. Oftentimes these are items we're planning on obtaining with or without anyone else's intervention... although, we may not be able to do so immediately, they're not out of the question. What if we were to fill the list with items wildly beyond our means? Does it make it an impossible fantasy? Or does it push us to find resources to make it happen? Sometimes we need to vocalise our desires. The first step towards making a wish come true, is making the wish!

Monday, December 19, 2016

Sounds Of Silence

My all time favourite song of 2016. When this comes on the radio in the car the whole world knows I am playing this song!! Absolutely so powerful that my hair stands on end every time I hear it. I LOVE David Draiman's version of this song.

Thursday, December 15, 2016

A Friend In Need

My friend has been going through a really tough time. Her husband is very ill at the moment. So inevitably we are now backwards and forwards with whatsapp messages. Day in and day out and late at night too. That is how I am. I will make time for a friend in need. It is very often in cases like these that you realise who your true friends are. Often times those that you really thought would be there for you surprise you horribly! No matter whether it is in a family, a love relationship or friendship we all need someone to be there as a pillar of support. Without that it can be very lonely, quite devastating really if you even consider the mental and emotional anguish that someone has to endure when they are all alone in the world! I am grateful that I have loving, supportive friends and family in my life. 

Monday, December 12, 2016

Having Your Cake And Eating It

A friend of mine happened to read this post and asked me what I am on about as in general when people refer to "having your cake and eating it" - it usually means that you have two people in your life that you are intimately involved with and therefore the saying "you can have your cake or you can eat it" but not both. So basically you need to choose, it is either the one or the other. I cracked up laughing because that analogy does not apply to me and yes, I did not think about it that way!  She was really confused and also had a good laugh as she thought I was hiding this deep, dark secret from her! :D No, I am not in that boat and my opinion on that scenario is that I do not agree with it at all. My stance on relationships is that if you are involved with someone, you remain loyal to that person. I was faced with a choice the other day that had nothing to do with a relationship. It concerned a choice I had to make regarding an option or rather an opinion related to my business. Something more directed to the sentences that I have highlighted below. You can have your cake or you can eat it. You can't do both. Or so conventional wisdom tells us. But what's the point of having a cake that you can't eat? And, as it is impossible to eat a cake that you can't have, why wouldn't you try to eat it while you have it? You've been feeling as if life has been asking you to work a miracle. Today, it becomes clear that you only have to re-evaluate an old opinion. Take a less pessimistic look at that cake!

Friday, December 9, 2016

I Wanna Kiss You All Over

At some point today this song randomly popped into my head and stayed all day...I love you...I need you...I wanna kiss you all over...and over again...Keep on loving me Baby and I'll keep on loving you...Oh stay with me Baby and hold me all night long...Show me...Show me everything you do...Cos Baby no one does it quite like you...Tonight closes in...You're everything to me...a FAB-ulous song...

Thursday, December 8, 2016

Sensory Perception

I am in awe! Berry Jones is amazing. It is so uncanny how the messages are so relevant to my experiences each day. These messages are so profound! Yesterday again I was having a bad day at work. Wondering if I will be able to get my team to follow the vision I have. Wondering where the like-minded people are. Trying to word my adverts in such a way to reach the right people. Hashing out words - over and over and rehashing them again! Frustration coursing through me like a wild river! A frigging challenge for sure but dammit I am determined. Today (8 December 2016) I think I have found a team that will follow. I am looking forward again. Today I have happiness in my heart not only in my work life but in my personal life too!! The bends in the road are definitely alot less frightening than I imagined! What can I say? All but...thank you!

Today's Daily Angel Card Message for Wednesday, December 7, 2016

When you stand in your power, you have this incredible insight into all the hidden possibilities surrounding you. You are not alone, as there is lots of support everywhere you look. These opportunities are flowing from within your soul and reflecting through your outer experiences. All you have to do is have the courage to express them for those people who will benefit from them the most. You are strong and can solve any problems, which may challenge you along the way. This is your appointed time, which you can sense. Your sensory perception is spot on. There's no reason to hesitate or second guess what you get. You're standing in a position of advantage, where the general view gives you enough information to make an informed decision. Consider all the variables in relationship to everything you want. Don't segregate or break down the information into separate parts. Keep seeing the complete picture of contrast as a significant whole working in unity to help you unearth your truth, and it's purpose. Your entire body of life experiences is cultivating and deriving the individual pieces that will eventually fall into place. There's nothing lacking in yourself or in your reality. It is all there what you seek and need. You simply have to draw the components together through the eye of your spiritual perspective, lead by your heart’s passions.

The angels want you to feel how immensely loved and supported you are at this time. You have a strong conviction to use some form of communication to advertise your message. Perhaps, you are feeling compelled through some medium of communication to speak, teach, or heal. There are many possible avenues for you to accomplish this. It does not matter which it is. It's most important that you allow yourself to naturally follow the one which you feel more fluent and at ease with. Don't try to do something because it seems it will have a greater impact on your success. This has more to do with which will allow you to find the best channel of connection with your audience. The voice of your spirit is inspiring and motivational. You have an ability to uplift and create change. Even though there will be challenges in this, you thrive in this environment best. These challenges do not hinder your efforts or mission, they are the basis of your divinely guided choices. You are a natural healer going into battle with a great light. Your light is a bringer of beauty and peace. The peace you bring is truth and alignment, as the souls you encounter find their way again. Your happiness and theirs is the result, which peace offers. Peace is not a smooth quality of vibration, like a placid lake’s surface. It's more like an undisturbed flow of momentum and enjoyment in your journey, no matter what bumps appear on the surface. When you are focused and clear about what you are aiming for, your awareness expands and you allow a broader range of information into the scope of your vision and perception. Those bumps you notice or discover before you make contact with them, and it allows you to make choices about their meaning to your overall plan.

Some of those bumps in your higher state of consciousness may or may not have a role in the current process. A decision is made and accepted whereby you act in accordance with your own alignment. You don't think to replay your performance or actions, you simply monitor how much of your flow you are channeling. Within the peace of your heart, your aim is to allow more improvement of this to occur each time. You recognize that you have only the present moment and its circumstances to apply this process, so you sever regrets from the past, and keep living in the present. As you do, the body of your whole experiences come into focus and serves the desire you wish to fashion. In this way, all the parts of your life can work in harmony to bring a central current of success to support whatever dreams or goals you are producing and processing. There are many who would be happy to dive in and join you in achieving your goals, if you are more available to assistance from others. Don't hold onto too tightly to your purse strings. Loosen up a bit in this regard, in order for your needs and their means to flow more efficiently. You would like to retain a certain level of control over the direction and ultimate outcome. However, think about surrendering the controls out of fear for the ultimate purpose of abundance to take a greater direction than you had been able to conceive alone. What you will have, would not be possible, if not for the entire team of participants whom will follow.

Your body of affluence stems from the collective creation of your Source, who is the forever living presence, which is sharing and inspiring the desires, which bring you peace and purpose. Celebrate your achievements wielded in the independence of your expression. Think less about safety and the how’s. Concentrate on the ways to relinquish the voice of your soul through creatively doing and interacting. Listen to what your gut tells you, to guide you through the path of least resistance no matter what occurs. If friends or like-minded individuals show up on your path to help you, receive what they have to offer. There will probably never be a straight line to your destination. Enjoy the bends in the road. Lean into them a bit. They are a lot less frightening than you imagined. Let the peace of your Source flow through each experience, and see what develops from your openness and receptivity. You'll be most surprised at the amount of information and understanding you have access to from the advantage of this position. You are feeling strongly optimistic and with good reason! Choose the path that's right for you. Others will find their way soon. You are a model for peace. May the Source be with you always!


Tuesday, December 6, 2016

Accepting Another's Child

People have asked me if I were to get married again and my future husband has a child or children from either a previous relationship or marriage, would I accept them? I don't even have to think about that as the answer would be yes. That is IF I were to find a man that proposed to me :D. 

Many years ago when I got divorced my son was only 18 months old. Those years men were not prepared to accept another man's child. I had huge issues with men just because I had a son. My motto was - that if they could not accept that I have a son, then they were not worth it.

I did have a relationship where my partner at that time also had a son. Kelly was about two months younger than Jason. For a whole year that little boy was a part of my life every second weekend when it was his turn to be with his father. I loved and cared for him! When the relationship ended, it was difficult. I missed Kelly something terrible and so did Jason. But we had to move on.

I have never had an issue with other people's children. When my nephew Donovan married Julie. Julie had a little girl from her previous marriage. At that time Jamie was 2 years old. Our whole family accepted Jamie including me. Donovan and Julie are now getting divorced and it has affected me big time because again, I miss Jamie. She is now 6 years old. I cannot imagine how broken her little heart must be. It is sad. She cannot understand why it is that Hayden, Donovan and Julie's little boy - my great nephew - now goes to Donovan for weekends and she can't go with. Oh gosh, just writing that has brought tears to my eyes!! Crap - I am such a softy sometimes! teeheeheee

Anyway, my answer to the question is - yes, should I ever be in that position, I would accept a child or children from a previous relationship or marriage. I have always wanted a family of my own. I do have my son and I do have my sisters, nephews etc but I am talking about having my very "own" family. A husband. I have always wanted a husband. If he has a child or children that would be a bonus!! It would be wonderful having a happy, loving family :D